NEW YORK (FOX 5 NY) - Linda Beigel Schulman relies on stories and photos shared from the past to move forward. Her beloved son, Scott Beigel, was one of the 17 victims killed in the Stoneman Douglas school shooting in Parkland, Florida, almost a year ago.
"Today's day 357," she said. "I still get up every morning and my first thought is 'It's real. It's not a nightmare.'"
Beigel, 35, was a geography teacher who died a hero trying to protect his students.
"I won't call it an anniversary because an anniversary to me is something special and happy," she said. " "But I feel like it's a day I will relive—February 14, 2018—because it's so upfront and in your face."
Her story is one of the emotional interviews included in a nearly two-hour documentary detailing what transpired inside the school that deadly day.
"It's a blow-by-blow, play-by-play of exactly what happened inside the building," director Charlie Minn said. "That's why it's called 'Inside Building 12.' It's not called 'Outside building 12' because so far that's all people have been talking about."
Minn chose to release the film in New York and Los Angeles one year after the massacre to honor the innocent victims and survivors inside Building 12. He made it a point not to reference the shooter.
"I don't mention the killer's name because it creates copycats," he said. "He admitted he did it for attention."
Instead, Minn felt the attention should be placed empathizing with the victims and inspiring change.
While nothing will bring her son back, Beigel Schulman encourages everyone to watch the film. Since the shooting, she has become an advocate for reasonable gun control and promised herself to make sure Scott's death was not in vain.
"I want Scott remembered as the most humble and devoted son, and just a normal person who wanted to live and love life," Beigel Schulman said.